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1 : PURGATION
2 a : purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art b : a purification or purgation that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension
3 : elimination of a complex by bringing it to consciousness and affording it expression

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Monday, Sept. 16, 2002 - 11:37 P.M.
Do you ever wonder what you would do if you weren't afraid. I mean if you take that one thing or two things or fifty things that you are afraid of and castthat fear aside,and did whatever it was anyway, how would your life be different. Who would you love? Where would you be? How would you live? How high would you fly? What waters would you tread? Fear is one of my nemesis. It keeps me at bay because I'm afraid of what you would think of me. Of how you would see me. Of how you would feel about me. I often tell people, it doesn't matter what the rest of the world thinks, it just matters what I think. It matters how i feel. and how I see myself. But when I open myself up and let you in, become attached and need you, then all of that crap goes out the window. You are part of my life and you are part of the "me" as I have made you a part of me, a part of how I see the world.

Sometimes I have the desire to run and jump off that cliff, devil may care, and do, say, feel, love all the way down. Because its the fall that is important. You can either fall or fly.

This isn't making a lot of sense. i don't know if intended to make sense.

I just know that I have this trapped caged feeling going on inside me and the key to set me free is still out of my reach. I want to be unfettered. i want you to unchain me

neurosis ~ catharsis