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I think Tiffany's burned down, just a lot of Smoke and Soot left?
2001-06-09 - 10:19 a.m. I have two friends who aren't talking to each other. Friends who were friends long before I came along and now who seem perfectly content to stay as far away from each other as they want and me in the middle. I tried not to take a side, but I know I did somewhere along the way, actually it was at the very beginning. I did take a side. And maybe that's the distance that can't seem to be crossed. I don't know really. I've been sad lately about their friendship, because its not anymore. that kind of puts up a wall. And I don't know what paige is thinking about this. She and i are wearing the same shoes. I mean all the other parties involved seemed to have taken to one camp or the other and the two of us bounce back and forth, not like pawns, because we are their friends and we want to spend time with them, but I feel like if I have to tell teh other one I am hanging out with the other, that I am being traitorous. its a horrible feeling. I'm sure its not intentional, its probably just all in my head. Its never going to be the way it was, I know that is true. the bridge has been burned. yeah you can still traverse the sucker, but really slow and one step at a time. cuz now its real rickety and you get all this soot all over you by the time you get across. and do you know how hard it is to get soot out of clothes. nd you come away smelling like a forest fire. And what kind of analogy is that? My day looks oh so delightful. I'm going to go swimming for a little bit before I have to go to work. Hopefully the day will fly by. There are a ton of people working today. I wish I was working the day shift insteaed of the night shift, but sometimes you gotta take teh good with teh bad. Ain't that always the case. Then I don't know exactly what I am doing for the evening. I am off on Sunday and am planning on enjoying myself immensely, doing something or other. Love the cemented plans don't you. Two weeks and I am on vacation down to Austin. talk about a cool city. It really is a cool city. Really it is. You should visit sometime. And if you live there, you are so lucky. My friend lives there. She is lucky. She's brilliant and beautiful and fun and we are the best of friends. She was my confidante when I worked at the movie theatre with her and melissa. that was when I first met melissa. Course melissa doesn't hold the fondest of feelings for her because of it, but you know ,such is life. She is the only one who has never told me to not love Mel, the only one who suffers as acutely from a romantic heart than me. Which is not true. I know there are others thusly afflicted, we of the romantic heart, but she has never told me not to love her out of everyone. she has a titanium plantinum star next to her name in my book. i don't really have much to say. I guess that was my way of saying I am looking forward to going down to Austin in a couple of weeks. I need a break I guess. I feel like I am living that Green Day song, "Basket Case" not so extreme, but the last couple of weeks have been sort of topsy turvy and trying to find out which way is up, is a little dizzying sometimes. I fairly sure I'm up now. I heard this song the otehrday when we were on our Way back from Remember When. Breakfast at Tiffany's and there's a line in it that goes..... and I'm thinking this. Breakfast at Tiffany's is a profound little song, ain't it. I'm not one for quoting lyrics. music and songs aren't my forte' but read this song.
What's the ONE thing we got? Is there one? You'll forgive me for holding out hope that this rift or whatever it is can be mended. I'm tired of washing the smoke and soot out of my clothes. Read me later.
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