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oh Valentine, sweet valentine, may your cupid be shot through the arse...i mean happy valentine everybody
2001-02-14 - 15:58:13 Unfortunately, this year, the heart ain't in it. Quite to the contrary the heart is a little out of it. The heart says, who gives a flying rip. I would go on and on about just how fleeting love appears to be right now, but how inspiring a read worthy would that be. so I'll just mosey on to more depressing topics of conversation. I won at bowling again last night. twice. I was off my first game. Granted none of the high scores even reached the triple digit mark. You know its bad when your bowling scores could double as the combination to our school locker. It was sad really. Then we went to Bennigans where I had to have some desert. I was still a bit full from dinner with carolyn. We ate at Chili's where I hada the monterrey chicken, twice,, well actually the first time it was burnt, so we sent it back and the second time, almost 30 minutes later I had to get it in a to go box, because well i had some miserable bowling to do before the night was over. Plus I filled up on chips and dr pepper. SO I had brownie bottom pie, which for dessert was pretty damn good. This morning since I am taking a personal day at work I decided to sleep late. just got out of bed about 10 minutes ago. 10:50. that's sort of late. I did listen to the alarm clock. I guess I could have turned it off. But daylight tends to wake me up anyway. The sky outside is appropos for the day. Ugly grey and miserable. You know the sad thing, and its not really sad, is that I want all the love and emotion that is supposed to go with this day. Even though technically, it really isn't a holiday but a grand marketing scheme on the parts of the cardmakers and chocolatiers of America to squeeze in a big moneymaker. Ah capitalism. Never an end in sight. I was surifing around on the net in hopes of finding anti valentines day stuff, and well I had no trouble at all The sad thing is I am sitting at my desk looking around, wondering what more to write and I happen upon all this roamntic crap that I wrote down at work the other day talking about love and stuff and I can only sigh. I wrote it down in the diary a couple of weeks ago, maybe longer but still I have to write this one again ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I love you the more that I believe you have liked me for my own sake and for nothing else - john keats AND
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ how do I long to tread for the first time the road that will bring me in sight of Grasmere...to see, to touch you, to speak to you and hear you speak...let me not then be disappointed, but give me your heart that I may kiss the words a thousand times -william wordsworth
this is to let you know that all I feel for you can never wholly go I love you and miss you, even two hours away with all my heart, this is to let you know - noel coward okay a little self agrandizing on my part. the moment I fell in love she was as close as my shadow but I could not hold her or feel her at my side but I saw her, smelled her, wanted her, needed her the moment I fell in love
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ So close I brush up against you not knowing what to say I blush, you smile your eyes aglow I'm flustered, embarassed certain you see through me through my facade to my love for you
Intimate strangers on that glorious twilight and struggles between virtue and vice passions in the dying light black and white I see it and call it love
I dreamt of you last night or at least I think I did I don't remember, . . .but I feel you in my thoughts and in my head your smile, your eyes, your lips you in my head, when I close my eyes -andrew hobbs This is love to me, something that is ever present ever wonderful ever filling my heart and my mind and those waking moments when I think of her I can only hope I never lose these feelings To all of you who are happily in love, i wish you the very best of what this day represents, minus the cards and the spending, but all the love and emotion and intensity that is love.
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