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Torn asunder, ain't it swell
Monday, May. 05, 2003 - 11:32 P.M. This weeks is finals weeks. Which seems so odd. the year is practically half over. Where the hell did it go? Honestly. It seems like January was just yesterday, but apparently that's not the case at all. This year has been pretty shitty all the way around. I mean not so much for me, but it seems that everyone else has had a crap year and I've been feeling it. I don't know what. I told you I got Mel that autographed book of Kathleen Woodiwiss' but I still haven't even mailed it to her. I don't know why that is. Why I'm so hesitant. Maybe I don't want to send it. Maybe I'm perturbed that I've ben relegated to such a low priority in her life. That it is just her life now and I'm on the outside looking in, having to clean a spot on a dust covered window to see in. I know that its just.....what.....what is it? I'm taking a vacation, the first week of june. I'm thinking maybe somewhere by myself. I'm thinking I want to go back to california. Just picking a spot and being a native for a week then coming back home. Some place by the beach. I don't know. I'm suddenly feeling a bit torn. Being pulled every which way. I don't know why. Or maybe I do and I just don't want to put it to words. I need to get away. remember london? Remember how you missed everybody when you left? and how you couldn't wait to get back to see everybody, how you wished they were there with you? Is that what you want, to go somewhere only to wish they were there too....
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